Angels by the bay
byTamison Fox Brau, October 1997

Christmas Day 1991, my brother's wife of nearly 28 years died in a Houston hospital. Devastated, our family pulled together to comfort each other. We didn't dare speak to anyone outside the family. The mere mention the silent killer's name marked anyone remotely associated with the disease. Isolated and alone we tried to be strong knowing the worst was yet to come. No matter how much we wished otherwise, it was only a matter of time before my brother's only child, an adorable seven year-old girl, would suffer the same fate as her mother.

In our family's darkest hour, I felt as if God had abandoned us and I was afraid the whole world would do the same. I prayed for just one angel to step forward--some truly special person to tell us that no matter how difficult the world seemed, we didn't have to face it alone.

The next summer my brother sold his home in Houston, packed up all his belongings and moved to the small town in Maryland where his wife had grown up and we had spent our childhood summers. They settled into a small rent house in St. Michael's, Maryland, on the Eastern Shore of the Chesapeake Bay.

 My brother decided it was time to go public with his daughter's disease. When he told me of his decision, I held my breath. I wasn't entirely convinced the move was the best thing much less going public. They were so far away from Texas where I thought I could protect them. I worried about everything. How would people react? Would Megan have any friends? Would the community turn their backs on them? Every night I prayed for an angel to watch over them and anxiously awaited news from my brother--hoping against hope that they would be accepted.

My brother called to tell me that things went well. It seemed an angel appeared, and then another, and another. Before long, there was an entire legion of angels. And they didn't come just from St. Michaels. Many came from the other towns and villages that dotted the coastline in Talbot County. There were fisherman, carpenters, teachers, students, boat captains, nurses, secretaries, shopkeepers, retired folks--all ready and willing to reach out and take Megan into their hearts.

A year went by and then another. Megan made friends. There were parties, sleep-overs, and girl talk. They all knew her secret and it didn't matter. Aside from her diminishing health and regular trips to Bethesda for treatments, Megan was like any girl her age. She loved to cook, do crafts, and spend time with her friends. It almost seemed as if she were defying the odds. Even the pediatric specialists at the National Institute of Health could find no explanation for her continued survival.

She celebrated her tenth birthday and then her eleventh. Everyone prayed for a miracle, but it was not to be. Soon Megan's health began to deteriorate. Not even a personal visit from the President could stop the swift progression of the disease. In June of 1996, just 12 days shy of her twelfth birthday, Megan lost her valiant battle with AIDS. She died at her home in Royal Oak, Maryland, surrounded by family and friends.

Even as the people poured into the church for Megan's funeral, plans were underway to keep her memory alive. That same week the children in her sixth grade class carried hand painted signs and tributes to Megan as they marched through the narrow streets of St. Michaels. The music teacher dedicated the year-end choir concert to Megan and the kids sang their hearts out bringing tears to our eyes with "Lean on Me" and "Candle on the Water." Other events and memorials followed. This September, over a year after Megan's death, the Talbot County Hospice sponsored the first annual "Megan's Cup," a children's funfest honoring Megan.

Although Megan is gone, the people of Talbot County continue to lend their support and refuse to let her memory fade. Without reservation, they opened their hearts and gave their love to Megan knowing they would lose her in the end. They asked nothing in return. And for that I honor them. They are true angels.

Year after year, hundreds of thousands of tourists come in tour buses, yachts, and cars to Talbot County Maryland. They come to watch the log canoe races, enjoy the local seafood, walk among the restored homes, and visit the historic lighthouse at the Maritime Museum. Few of them know about the real treasures of Talbot County--the caring and wonderful people who helped guide our family through the most difficult days of our lives. They are my seaside angels and my "Candle on the Water."

On every visit to "the Shore," I like to walk along the water by the old lighthouse and watch the setting sun spill its sparkling rays across the sky onto the shimmering waves. In those quiet evening hours with the cool breeze of the angels wrapped around me I can almost hear the sweet voices of the children's choir.

candle
I'll be your candle on the water
My love for you will always burn
I know you're lost and drifting
But the clouds are lifting
Don't give up
You'll have some where to turn

I'll be your candle on the water
'Til ev'ry wave is warm and bright
My soul is there beside you
Let this candle guide you
Soon you'll see a golden stream of light

A cold and friendless tide has found you
Don't let the stormy darkness pull you down
I'll paint a ray of hope around you
Circling in the air lighted by a prayer

I'll be your candle on the water
This flame inside of me will grow
Keep holding on you'll make it
Here's my hand so take it

Look for me reaching out to show
As sure as rivers flow
I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go

Candle on the Water - From Pete's Dragon
Written by: Al Kasha and Joel Hirschhorn

 

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